My body is still damp, says Robert, my acupuncturist. I’ve downed countless cups of Chinese herbs, given up all dairy, white flour and sugar, but still… damp. I’m not too worried, as I think everything is still shifting around. It helps to connect to my new ‘family’ all over the world - comparing symptoms and finding all of them eerily similar, even down to the 3:30AM awakenings, sore butt muscles (what’s THAT all about?), ringing in the LEFT ear (not the right ear, mind you - just the left ear), to the sniffling and coughing. It’s not just me. I feel isolated sometimes - like I speak Lithuanian and everyone speaks Russian, and I’m speaking, but not a lot of people can even understand what I’m saying. Although I can usually understand them, so maybe I’m bi-lingual. Oh - you get the idea. But I found my Tribe, my community, in the 444, and even though I’m still feeling fatigued, it’s okay - it really is, because I’m just continuing to walk forward at a slower rate, not so impatient anymore, not so restless, but really, really content.
That’s a really good word, don’t you think? Content. I feel like a cat when I say it, curled up in the sun (which poked its beautiful head through the clouds today for a brief moment and I actually DID plant myself firmly in the sunshine and turn my face to it - until it left). What’s next? I feel everything aligning, like the tumblers within the lock - click click click - everything’s in alignment and the lock can now be opened so we can pass through. I just know everything’s going to turn out beautifully, whatever happens. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this much certainty before, certainly not in the past 5 years as I’ve been flying through the transformations and shifts, feeling the fear and the heart palpitations, visiting the doctors only to hear them tell me I’m perfectly healthy (then why did I feel so awful?).
It’s about TIME, is all I can say. Yes, it IS about time, because Time is softening, shifting around, becoming malleable, and we’re able to work with it on a more conscious level. What do we need to be doing, right NOW? That’s it. I think it’s that simple, but I’m not totally sure yet. I’ll keep you posted. What do I need to do right now? REST. So even though I’m damp, I know if I lie in the sun long enough, the damp will dry up and I’ll be right as rain again. Wait - not rain - that’s damp. Well, you get the picture.