Okay, how many ways can you say ‘detox?’ Several hundred, apparently. You’ve got your cold detox, your flu detox, your intestinal detox, your respiratory detox, your digestive detox, your neurological detox. I watch it happen over and over, and I won’t lie to you, I keep thinking it’s something real. Only it’s not. Or maybe it is? What do I mean by real, anyway? Real, as in ‘on this physical plane?’ Real, as in other people get it? Real, as in just present in the physical frequencies? I don’t even think there IS such a thing as that normal, anymore. Maybe there never was.
What I mean to say is that I think our body is our messenger, our holder of messages, our receptacle for everything else that comes before. We exist in this body, but we operate on a lot of other levels. We’re not just ‘here’ (wherever ‘here’ is). But we FEEL it ‘here.’ Oh lordy lord, sometimes it feels REALLY real, you know what I mean? The holidays were intense. The storm was appreciable - we had a storm just like it exactly a year ago when our trip to Bismarck was delayed a day, and we missed Dad’s big party. But Kari’s beloved rat dying in her arms Christmas Eve? My staph-infected thumb? A little too dramatic for my tastes, and as they say, “if you put that into a book, nobody would think it was believable.” That’s what leads me to think there is something going on. This is what I know: we walked through some kind of an energetic door around January 1st. Have you felt tired lately? Slept a lot? Been feeling kind of achey, dizzy, hot, queasy? Everybody seems to have this ‘thing’ right now. Flu? A cold? Whatever. A cough? Still? A little wheezy? Yup yup yup yup. On and on. So we walk through to this higher frequency, and our body is tired from all the work - it needs to adjust to the new environment. We need to rest. We need to detox. We need to drink a ton of water and tea and whatever else that doesn’t contain high fructose corn syrup. We need to slow down, rest, take it easy, chilax. I know, I know - you’re now feeling unencumbered and ready to party in your new Life, but hang on - does the newborn jump up and start running a marathon? No - she usually sleeps most of the days for a while, resting up after her incredible journey.
I forget things. A lot. I forget that above all we need to trust. There are so many things we need to trust - trust the Process, trust that everything is in perfect order and unfolding in Divine Timing. We need to trust in our unique Blueprints, that we’re doing exactly what we need to be doing when we need to be doing it. We need to trust our bodies, trust our intuition, trust our Guides, our angels, God. I also forget that everything changes. I have the tendency to go to the worst case scenarios, which is always death. I admit it: I’m still tired to earthly things. I love this current life. I love my friends and family, I love playing cello and writing, and reading, and dancing, and cooking, and listening to music. I love my things - my art, my books, my fuzzy white blanket. I love my cat. I love my daughter’s rat. I’m attached to things, strongly. I think that makes me scared, because I may lose everything. The funny thing is that I know eventually I WILL ‘lose’ all of those things, because they aren’t even ‘mine’ to begin with. Other people and animals are just spirit like me, my art is the exemplification of someone else’s spirit, as is music and books. Actually, everything is just a symbol, just air, really. Well, fast-moving molecules, really, just arranged differently. I need to remember that.
Just like my body. Mostly air. But still MY air to inhabit, and to take care of. Am I being gentle today? I feel kind of crappy as I sit here, but I still had a cello lesson, a visit to the chiropractor’s, some grocery shopping and a client. Overall not too light a day. Tomorrow doesn’t look too light, either. So I think I may curl up and get ready for bed, at 7:00. Hide under our white fuzzy blanket and just breathe for a while, and let my body continue its detox. Will it ever be over, these cycles? Will we ever get to that ‘place?’ Not in this lifetime, I don’t think. I think we’ve got too far to go. Our kids, and our kids’ kids? Yeah - they’re a lot closer than us, I think. They don’t need to detox because they came in cleaner. But us? Yeah - have some tea and relax. It’s going to be a long ride. But you can do it. I’m right here with you. I believe in you. I do.