a great song by Stuart Davis, more accurately how I am feeling these days. The subtle shift between real and dream, now back again, or more probably integrated into one. Mom’s been coming to me every single night. After I realized she was always incapacitated on a bed or couch, I asked that she only come to me alive and awake and walking. So that is what I got. A healthy Mom to hang with in the Dreamtime. I am almost positive that how I see her in my dreams is more a reflection of my own healing and grieving process, so that means I am now healthier and stronger. I trust that is what that means. I get phone calls and e-mails every day from people who are struggling. Whether we schedule readings, or I just talk them down from the ledge, I know this is not an easy time. The shift on the 21st shifted us all into high gear, catapulted us out into the wide open space (once more). Although we always arrive at a wider space, this one is REALLY wide open, and I feel like I’m just a bunch of little particles that all happen to float together enough to make up my solid body. I don’t even know what I mean when I say that, only that that is how I feel right now. My sleep energy is exactly as my waking energy, my knowingness can’t be separated from my conscious thoughts. The permanent dream state is now a pleasant reality, like waking from a dream, only to be in another dream, only to realize it doesn’t matter what’s a dream. As Lao Tzu said, “Am I a man dreaming I’m a butterfly, or a butterfly dreaming I’m a man?” And now I have to answer, “Yes.”
It’s no longer even the topsy turvy, 180 degree, do the opposite thing, kind of living. It’s moved into the 360 degree, everything is all kind of mindset, which can be a little daunting if you think about it. No limits? Only possibilities? That’s why we only give children a choice between two things - too many options makes for total confusion. But we’re ready for it, if we just stretch our minds enough to let everything unfold without our imposing our judgments on it. Can we do that? We we just let go, and trust? It’s a work in progress for me, I’m thinking. Day by day, always letting go, releasing, falling awake. But I must admit it - it IS a really cool dream, if that’s what all of this is, right? Dream on, everyone, dream on…