There’s just something about sunshine that makes me want to sing, throw out my arms, and hug everybody I see. I feel a lightness in my whole being, starting on the inside, and working its way out through my skin. I can FEEL it. At times like this I wonder why we live in North Dakota, where it’s cloudy most of the winter, yet on sunny days like today I don’t care, because, well, it’s sunny! And I think I like this feeling so much because it reminds me of what it’s like when we’re in our more ‘whole’ state of being. When I’ve lifted out of my fears and worries and neuroses and day-to-day ponderings, to that clear blue sky place. I call it my Happy Place, or HP for short. Instead of sending the kids to their rooms, we should send them to their Happy Places. “And don’t come back until you’re happy!”
Not that we have to be that way all of the time, but I think if we’re really dedicated to finding that balanced place between inner and outer, upper and lower, carnate and incarnate, we’ll be able to FEEL that energy most of the time, even when things are tough down here (as they are wont to be). It’s a dance between the worlds, for sure. On the one hand we’ve got this physical existence and reality. It’s dense down here, people are any degree of awake or asleep, there’s violence, disease, pain, cold, hatred. But (and yes, that’s a big but), you’ve also got kindness, and laughter, and Christopher Guest, and warm chocolate chip cookies, and soft cats, and violets. You DO get it all - in one big soupy mess, most times, but it’s at times like this, when I’m lucid (probably because that darned infection is finally gone) that I can really understand that dance between everything. It’s not that one thing is good and another is bad, or one thing is ‘better’ than anything else - it’s just all HERE with us, and we’re interacting with it all, bumping up against each other and everything, and WE get to decide what we want, and how we feel about it. We get to see whatever we want to see down here, in any given moment. If we want to see sadness, I guarantee you’ll see sadness. If you want anger, you’ll get anger. If you want amazement, you’ll have a neverending supply of amazement. You just need to focus on what you believe in. Then the fog lifts, the clouds part, the sun shines in the blue sky again, and you can see for miles and miles and miles and miles. And the view is guaranteed to take your breath away. I guarantee it. Breathe deeply, open your eyes, and SEE it. Stunning, isn’t it? I knew you’d think so, too.