M called last night. Her back was out again, and she was supposed to fly out for Christmas. Then L, another friend, told me HER back had gone out and she didn’t know what to do. Everyone everywhere is feeling much the same way these days - overwhelmed, shaky, isolated, peaceful yet unsettled, kind of sick with aches and sniffles, but not medically sick. I send everyone energy and support, healing and love, because I think we all need it. We need to feel that we aren’t alone, that others care about us, SEE us, want the best for us. We need to HEAR from others that we are precious and necessary and wonderful. So I tell YOU: you are here, you are powerful, you are a Warrior, you are doing it!!! Everything is not as it seems right now, but if you trust (what other choice do we have?) hopefully someday we will be able to see the broader picture and understand why we went the way we went, pathwise. Not much of anything may make sense right now - why you’ve lost your job, why your husband left you, why you’re sick, but I know, I just KNOW that everything is happening EXACTLY as it needs to happen for you. There are no accidents, no coincidences, nothing is done haphazardly or lightly at your expense. Why is this happening to you right now? I don’t know - I’d be lying if I thought that I, or anyone else for that matter, knows what’s going on right now. I have an idea, and it is this: we are on a timetable to magnificence, and if that’s true, we need to get to a certain place in our lives or we can’t attain that magnificence. How we get there is unique to us - what we need to unblock, heal, dump, take on, transform or transmute. If we have issues they WILL be addressed - no more pussyfooting around them or running away. That sucks; I understand that.
But I also understand that you are equipped to do this Work, or you wouldn’t be here. Period. I know that’s true, even if it doesn’t FEEL like it’s true for you. I know it is. You are brave, and powerful beyond imagination, intelligent and creative, tenacious and feisty, honorable and steadfast and dedicated to your journey. I also know that most of us don’t ask for the help that we need. We don’t want to bother anyone else, or burden them. Or maybe we don’t want anyone to think we’re weak, or bad, or lazy, or immature or irresponsible or incapable of taking care of our lives. But I know that part of this time is about asking for help from others, feeling that energy that connects us as we reach out to others and receive their love and care. It’s really a beautiful thing, if you think about it. That’s what we’re HERE for, after all, to love each other.
I’ve told the story about Kenny and Sammy at Miraval, but the phrase that I will repeat is Kenny reassuring me, “I’ve got your back.” I’d never heard that before, and it moved me profoundly, and still moves me whenever I think about it. It meant that he was keeping me safe, watching out for me, wouldn’t let me drop (literally, in that particular case), and was staying with me. So I tell you the same thing this day: I’ve got your back. I am here for you, in whatever capacity I can be. I pray for you, send you energy and love, encourage and inspire you at every turn on your life’s path. I hold the light so you can see. I call to you in the dark so you won’t be scared. I stay. That’s what I’ve always done, and that’s what I’ll continue to do. I’ve got your back. And you’ve got mine. Thank you.