So, in the spirit of total disclosure, I am not going to be fully in the spirit! I will admit it - yesterday I was not feeling so keen. It was difficult to fast for almost two days, but the uhm, cleansing process was not bad at all. Not bad at all! I realize as I keep having to face things that scare me, that the things that scare me the most are the things that end up being no big deal, while the things I am NOT afraid of end up being kind of sucky. I don’t know why that is - it must be a lesson for me. So I guessed the colonoscopy would probably end up being a non-event, and it actually was, but here’s the really great part: what I learned along the way. So here is my list of lessons learned, and gifts received:
1. It is possible to change the energy of an event into what you choose it to be. You can be a victim, scared and vulnerable, or you can spin it to work FOR you. I am living proof it is possible.
2. When you create a community of like-minded, loving, caring people, anything is possible! While in the procedure room I saw and felt about 100 of my friends there with me. Oh, and a gaggle of guardian angels, as well!
3. Trust your body, trust yourself, and be bold!
4. Most everything I have stressed out about and worried about has never come to pass, so looking back, I have wasted a TON of time and energy on NOTHING. What will I decide from this moment on? To focus on what I WANT, not on what may be that is awful or scary or ‘bad’. It hardly ever, ever happens, and if it DOES, I can deal with it!
5. I so badly wanted to cancel and just blow the procedure off, but I didn’t. So now I am good for another 10 years. It is good to just DO what you need to do and not postpone or cancel. Just do it.
6. I worked through some pretty heavy-duty past life traumas revolving around saying things I shouldn’t have said and getting in trouble for it, along with not being in control during procedures (I don’t even want to THINK of what past lives those were - had a panic attack watching Mel Gibson in that one movie where they put him under water and stuff....ew....)
So that’s it in a nutshell. I feel my stomach growling again, after only eating an omelet early this morning, so I think I’ll go be gentle with it and eat some more. Poor stomach. It’s such a good stomach. And while we’re at it, small and large intestines, you pretty much rock my world, as well!!! Here’s to our fabulous, powerful, healthy bodies and all they do for us! Eternal gratitude and thankfulness every moment of the day. Please hit me upside the head (gently) if I ever forget to thank you.