Okay, no holds barred, total honesty. Let’s talk. This is a rough time for most of us. It sucks. People are leaving us, we’re losing our jobs, our homes, our health. We are feeling sensitive, crying at the drop of a hat (or just because - no hats even need be involved), we feel raw, exposed, vulnerable. We may feel scared, shaky, unsure. We may have trouble sleeping and concentrating. Our backs hurt, our necks hurt, our temples and jaws hurt, our joints are sore, our hips are tight, our eyes are dry and hot. We feel crabby. We feel like withdrawing from others. We feel disconnected. We can’t remember things. We don’t want to get dressed in the morning. Taking a shower is an insurmountable task. We snap at people.
Right, not ALL the time, but enough of the time, and consistently enough to be really difficult and trying. A lot of people just want to give up, pack up and go Home. I understand ALL of this, my friends, because I have felt some, if not all of the above things, in the past 2 months. Out of all the energy shifts (now called ‘upheavals’ I have experienced since I started tracking them 15 years ago, this current time is THEE most intense and difficult to date. I think I am moderately prepared and aware enough to be able to kick this energy’s ass, yet I find myself unable to get locomoted most days, so exhausted I can hardly drag my butt out of bed. Okay, a squirt of Vitamin D every morning HAS done wonders, but still… there’s something deeper going on. How do we deal with all of this, when we can hardly function? For me, one of the best things is first to note what I’m feeling, WHEN I’m feeling it. Then NOT judge it. Just note and notice it. That’s all. The second thing is to remember to breathe. Deeply. It helps, it really does. The third thing to do is to become aware of how it feels in your body. If you feel any tight areas, you can consciously relax them. Do some stretching, some yoga, some tai chi, take a walk, dance. The fourth thing is to ALWAYS be gentle with yourself. Take it easy. Don’t put too much on your agenda. Just don’t. It’s just too difficult right now to do anything outside of just survival.
If others are feeling the same, if not more, than I’m feeling, then we all also need to be gentle and supportive and loving toward each other, as well. Help when you are able, ask for help when you need it. Just remember - you’re not in this alone. You’re really not. At the very least, if you’re feeling like crap right now, just remember that I’M here with you! See? I’m right here. And I’m staying here, to help however I can, with my words, or a hug or a laugh, or a reading. We’re all in this together, limping sometimes, crawling sometimes, skipping and dancing sometimes, but always moving forward and through. We just need to keep believing (even when that seems impossible), and keep walking. Rest if you need to, but then start again. We’ll make it, I promise. It just really kind of sucks right now, overall. There ARE moments of clarity and beauty and supreme gentleness and awesomeness, but there is also the reality of the changes, which are requiring every ounce of our strength and courage we can muster. Just HANG IN THERE - we’ll make it. We will. We will. And the end of it all? Well, I’M going to have one hell of party, that’s for dang sure!