I just don’t think it’s worth listing all the current symptoms anymore, because the list just keeps getting longer and longer. However, I DO still think there’s some value in talking about CURRENT symptoms that a lot of people are experiencing. I tell ya, I’ve been working with these ‘symptoms’ for over 10 years, and it’s really intense and strange, even for me! One of the oddest things I’m seeing is foot injuries. Within 24 hours of each other, two friends fractured feet. You may not think it odd, but what I always do is see if I notice something, notice a trend. Like sinus issues - everywhere!!! We are not immune to it. It started two days ago for me. I was with a client, and I started clearing my throat, and clearing it and clearing it. It wouldn’t clear. That night Steve even mentioned I was coughing more than usual. For the last two mornings I’ve woken up exhausted, and with a red left eye. It feels like a cold in my eye. This morning my nose is totally plugged and it’s a little hard to breathe. And I’m not alone. Several were out sick last week with the sinus/lung stuff. You can call it flu or whatever - I’m just noticing it.
This morning Bill is coughing more than usual, and it’s a little more productive. But then he’s been coughing since the end of August. Can it be THAT powerful? Can we just keep trusting that our bodies are doing whatever they need to be doing, and that there’s not something actually WRONG? But how can there be so many things wrong with so many people at the same time? Let’s talk about the sore back, shall we? Friend Miirri is on major painkillers for her bad back. Mine’s just constantly stiff, but my hips are tight and my knees hurt. When I told my friend Dawn about my chronically sore right shoulder, she said she thought it was from using the crutches for her broken foot (she was one of the foot people). I don’t think so. When I ‘look’ at everything that’s going on, I get the information that this energy is amping up since January 1st. I think part of it is that we were on a timeline to get this whole process completed, but it proved more difficult than first anticipated, so we had to back up and take it more slowly. That makes good sense, but if there’s an event coming up that we need to be ‘ready’ for, then we need to up our Work. It’s like training for a marathon that takes place May 1st. We need to run more and more over the months, but if we get hurt, we need to back off. However, if we STILL want to run the marathon on May 1st, there comes a point when we just HAVE to up our workouts again to get back on track for the main event. I think that’s what’s happening right now. We NEED to keep going, but again, I say, to somebody, ANYBODY, “Gees, give us a break already!!!”
Trust seems to remain THEE order of the day. Trust in our bodies, trust in Spirit, trust in the process, trust that there’s somebody SOMEWHERE that knows what’s going on and knows what they’re doing. Otherwise it all just gets too scary and overwhelming, doesn’t it? One of the more disturbing symptoms for me has been the brain thing. I try to type ‘buggers’ and I type ‘butters’ (don’t ask why I’m trying to ‘buggers’). I’m a word freak, impeccable in spelling and grammar, and yet I find myself typing “their” instead of “they’re” - it makes me shudder just thinking about it. Like those separate processing places in my brain are now somehow melting together so it’s harder to access correct information for the formulation of my thoughts into the written word. Sometimes my eyesight is so blurry (I just typed ‘bluffy’ - see what I mean?) I can hardly see anything. Think I need a new prescription for the glasses I never wear? Well, the next day everything is clear again, so it’s not a permanent state.
That might be the clue right there - I always speak of waiting a beat for things to change. That way you know there’s nothing ‘wrong’ with you. Only here’s the new catch: it seems that things AREN’T changing, or changing that fast anymore, so we begin now to wonder if there really IS something wrong with us. That shoulder ache has been there almost 3 weeks, Bill’s cough has been there for over 5 months, I’ve felt exhausted for almost 5 months. If there is still nothing ‘wrong’ with most of us (sometimes there really IS something wrong, like 1% of the time, so we still need to consider that - by ‘wrong’ I mean something that we can tend to on the physical level) and if our symptoms DON’T go away in a timely fashion, then perhaps we’re being called to step up our mastery and realize we may need to work with our ‘issues’ on a deeper level. Maybe I’m feeling exhausted because I have a lifelong pattern of going too hard, doing too much, and not resting enough. Maybe Bill’s got a cough because he needs to move more, or do computer programming a little less. Maybe these aren’t easy fixes anymore. Maybe we’ve mastered enough of the process to move to the ‘harder’ stuff. I think that’s true. I don’t appreciate any of it, but I think it’s true, and I think, that despite all of my whining or “I hate to be neurotic” conversations with my sweet, patient husband, that we are all equipped to step up to this Next Step. I believe so. I hope so. I pray so. In the meantime, I think I’ll go rest a little bit.