I heard Fergie singing it in the waiting room at the oral surgeon’s yesterday. I thought it was a good sign, seeing as how my ‘today’ was not an especially ‘good good day.’ But I chose to see it as a good good sign, anyway, that good days were coming. I woke up this morning feeling like a new person. I think of how we are all being asked to give up things, over and over again, never stopping. Things: people, jobs, attachments, relationships, material things, ideas, judgments, habits, patterns, body parts (!). Anything that is not in our Highest Good - wave bye bye ‘cause it’s leaving, out the front door. We are watching it all in a steady flow. We can see it all leaving, feel it in our bodies. Well, I can, anyway. I feel clearer headed, bigger, cleaner, expanded. I can’t help it - I get curious. What will this process keep looking like? How will it change? How will it evolve? How will I evolve? How can we help each other through these times? How can we help ourselves through these times?
For me it seems that I’m working on bravery issues lately. Thinking about what I’m afraid of, then getting to go ahead and DO it. My mantra is simply “open” because I have the tendency to “close” when the going gets rough. I close my fists, close my breathing, close my energy field and flow, and wait… for battle, I guess. That’s all I can figure. But if there IS no enemy, we don’t have to prepare for battle, do we? The warrior transforms into the spiritual warrior, no longer at war with the world or herself, but bravely conquering her fears in the battlefield of her soul. That sounds corny, but I really mean it. We’re used to thinking there’s some enemy outside of ourselves that we have to defeat, but I’m turning around my thinking to believe that we have created the enemies in our heads, and that we are in fact our own worst enemies, but in the end there ARE no enemies, only reflections of ourselves. So if we see ourselves as the Enemy, chances are we’ll see everybody else as potential Enemies, as well. If we aren’t benevolent to ourselves, how can we expect anybody else to be benevolent to us? We’re just waiting for the other shoe to fall, waiting for that other person to reveal their True Selves, the Self that hurts and betrays, lets down and abandons. But that’s all an illusion, I think. I’m looking through slightly different eyes these days, slowly, slowly, my Vision is changing. Well, not changing so much as adjusting, focusing, getting clearer, to what really IS.
That’s it - it all just IS, whatever that means. And part of that is knowing that today IS gonna be a good good day, because it always IS good, no matter where we are, or what we’re doing, because we’re here, and we’re perfect, right now in this moment. And that’s really really good. Did it match up then, hearing that song at a really bad bad time? Yes - it was the perfect counterbalance to my emotions and feelings, reminding me gently that deep down it’s ALWAYS good. We decide what we see, what we feel, and how we live. Me? Right now I’m still in the clothes I wore yesterday, with my cashmere sweater over it all, curled up on my favorite chair, feeling a slight ache where my tooth used to be, but you know what else? I feel fabulous, really really fabulous. Just because. And that, my friends, IS really really good.