It started Tuesday evening, with that familiar full feeling in my left ear, and almost like I’m talking into a tin can underwater. I felt the band tighten around my forehead and neck, and immediately went to bed. That’s the start of my dizzy spells. It’s so not fun. When I woke up on Wednesday, I felt exhausted, but that’s nothing that new, as with all of these energy shifts and expansions, I’m exhausted most of the time. Heck, cloudy, windy, 22 below zero days don’t help any, I’m sure. But then I felt it - that hollow, drained kind of feeling that marks the recuperation phase of the dizzy spell, so even though it wasn’t a full-blown, have-to-crawl-upstairs-to-throw-up kind of dizzy spell, it still must’ve been something. I curled up in my fuzzy white bathrobe and sat in my favorite chair in the front room, just staring straight ahead. It was glorious. This morning I felt fine again.
I posted on Facebook, wondering if I was picking up on the events in Egypt, or if anyone else was feeling dizzy. I was shocked at the response. Everyone that posted was feeling some form of dizziness, fatigue, nausea, crabbiness, headache. Finally one friend asked me what I thought was going on. So I checked in, and got my answer: we all just went through a huge energy expansion, and the resulting increase in frequency gave us all altitude sickness. I looked up the symptoms and was shocked to see every single symptom that we’d all described listed on the website. My sweet friend Karen said that drinking water helped her a lot, and I read that the best cure for altitude sickness is drinking a lot of water. Isn’t it funny how everyone is intuitive even when we don’t really know what’s going on? We concluded the monster ‘dizzy’ thread by all saying how thankful we are that we have each other, and I extend that invitation for togetherness to you, as well. We are most certainly ALL in this together, and going through whatever we’re going through, in slightly different ways, for sure, but mostly in the same ways.
I call us First Wavers - the ones who appear to be standing on their boogie boards on top of the highest first wave that will be smoothing the ocean for the second and third wavers. We’re all up pretty high at the crest of that Wave, and although it’s exciting, it also can be scary as hell - what if we crash, what if the wave smashes us underwater so we can’t get up, what if we smash into something? It’s a pretty powerful wave, this thing some of us are riding, and I think you know if you’re a First Waver or not. If you’re reading this, chances are that you ARE a First Waver. I don’t know if there’s any need for definition or defining or separating anyone from anyone else, but I say this in defense of those who are really struggling right now. A TON of my friends are having health issues, relationship issues, panic, anxiety and depression issues, job issues, money issues. And not just little things - these are HUGE things. Sometimes other people say to these dear people, “Well, what’s wrong with YOU that you’re having such a tough time? MY life is just fabulous and easy. Maybe I’m just more spiritual or something...” Okay, they don’t actually SAY those words, because that would be really mean, but I DO think there are those of us who have volunteered to take on the heavy lifting for these initial shifts and changes. Don’t you feel it? Haven’t you been feeling it increasingly for the past year or so?
Well, I have. Ever since the summer of 2007, the year before Mom died. It’s been one long party since then, let me tell you. Dental issues, health concerns with everyone around me, Mom dying, more dental issues. But I actually think I’ve got it pretty good compared to a lot of my friends. I’ve got good health, the luxury of not having to work a full-time job, and the support of a really good man. But that’s not always the case for everyone else, so I try to act as a safe haven for those people, a support, a shoulder to lean on, an understanding ear. Because in the end, we will all end up at the same place, wherever that is, and we are all traveling together. So I want to be as kind as possible, because we are together, and together is very, very good.