I’m at the end of my rope. I’ve already made a knot and am trying to hang on, but this has gone on for over 4 months. My 10 year old is just not as healthy as he should be. I won’t bore you with the details, but last night he came down with a sudden high fever, and I spent the whole night holding him, checking his legs, neck arms and forehead for heat. Today his fever is gone, but he’s pale with dark circles under his eyes, and still has that damn cough he’s had for four months. Allergy shots aren’t helping (his allergen is known to cause asthma), oscillo isn’t helping, neither Vitamins C, D or E. Nor taking it easy, nor healing work, nor visualizations or meditations. I’m listening to him coughing as I type. I don’t know what else to do. Sometimes I wish I could just have some time that’s free from worrying about my kids. Maybe after 24 years I should realize I can’t get away from ‘problems’ and things that can worry me. Maybe I just need to change the way I deal with things. I’m not sure. On and on.
Maybe life is just like walking on hot coals right now. You think it’s too hot to handle, but once you make your mind up, you just concentrate and keep walking, very fast so you don’t get burned. You may get tired or scared but it’s worse if you stop. So we trust, and we keep going, and we call on our friends when we need to, and we believe as always, that we aren’t ever alone, and that there IS a purpose for everything that happens in our lives. Sometimes it gets hard to see straight, but in the end if I calm down, I CAN see it, even through the steam and heat of the spiritual ‘coals.’ Oops - it’s getting hot in here - gotta keep walking…