I love my Work. I truly do. Not a day goes by when I don’t learn something, either on my own or from working with others. The other day my sweet client asked, “When is this all going to clear?”, talking about the current level of energetic intensity. I laughed and said, “Well, it looks like we’ll be starting on something else around the first of the year!” Five years ago, when I started working with these ‘energy shifts’ in earnest, I naively thought that the end of each shift heralded the golden age of bliss (or something like that). What I failed to realize then (but fully realize NOW) is that it’s like working your way through school. When you’re done with a math class, the next math class isn’t EASIER - that wouldn’t make sense. You use what you’ve just learned and move on to a HARDER class so you can learn more. So that’s what we’re doing here - we’re given the opportunity to learn what we need to learn, then we’re given a different set of circumstances so we can become even more knowledgeable and empowered. But you’d better not sleep in class, or your ass will be grass next time around when things are stepped up. If you haven’t done your Work on this level, the next level is going to be even harder on you - it’s learn-as-you-go, and apply-what-you-know-for-next-time and if you didn’t learn it before, well, it’s going to feel even MORE confusing and overwhelming.
Can you imagine skipping basic algebra, so you didn’t understand addition and subtraction? Now add on the concepts of multiplication and division. Because you didn’t understand addition and subtraction, now you’ve glossed over the concepts of multiplication and division, so as you move on up to geometry and trigonometry - you just want to give up, don’t you? Nothing makes sense. I had a telling dream a few years back about being in a classroom and having the teacher at the front of the room drawing an equation the blackboard. I had to leave because I had to take care of my family. I was worried because I hadn’t gotten to see the equation, but then one of my fellow classmates handed me a sheet of paper, on which was written the formula. Phew! Even if I had to take a detour from my learning, I still got the equation. So when I dreamed a variation of that dream a few nights ago, the teacher was again writing this LOOOOOONG equation on the board - actually across two blackboards, but I couldn’t concentrate. Everyone else in the class was talking and goofing around, and even though I WANTED to do the problem and figure it out, I eventually gave up, resigned to not ‘getting the answer.’ But in this dream, I already knew how to ‘do’ the Work, so even if I couldn’t finish the problem in class, couldn’t finish my homework, at least I still knew HOW to do it.
This speaks beautifully to a lot of current situations we find ourselves in. Painful impasses as others seem to be goofing off and not learning the stuff, while we are still trying to work it, but we’re feeling overwhelmed. For me, my comfort is in knowing that I in fact, DO know how to do this Work, even if it’s not working in my current ‘classroom.’ Maybe we ALL know the equations for our lives, even if we’re unable (or unwilling) to do the Work that’s being asked of us at this time. What happens if we don’t hand in our Work? I’m not sure. I guess I’m taking my chances. All I know is that we DO keep moving on, and our lessons keep getting ‘harder.’ But if we stay awake, pay attention, ask for help when we don’t understand something, and get some homework buddies along the way, we’ll do just fine. And in the end, we always DO do ‘just fine.’ And most of us? We’re graduating, for sure. With honors? Not so sure. At this point, I just want to pass.