I should be used to all of this energy stuff. I’ve been doing it for almost 25 years. I know the basics for working with it: trust the process, be patient, take baby steps when you need to but keep going, get checked out by a licensed practitioner if any of your symptoms really scare you, stay awake, try your best, get support. But these last three weeks have dang near done me in. But I asked for it, yes, I did. I said, “Give me all you got - double time at night.” Enter the strange, painful confrontations with people, boom boom boom, three in the first 12 hours, more since. Out of nowhere, SO painful to me, hitting all of my deep-seated pains. I could hardly believe it when it started, it was that powerful and intense. I hardly had time to breathe before the next one hit. Then came the deep pain. I took everything on such a personal level that the hurt in my chest tightened it up so hard I was surprised. I had never felt such pain before. At the same time I knew it wasn’t ‘real’ but I still felt it. Then came the headsplitting headaches. Oh my god, last Sunday I thought I was having a stroke, or brain aneurysm, and trust me when I say I rarely get worried about any of THAT stuff (heart and other stuff yes, but not head stuff). I couldn’t even think from the pain. When that finally subsided I was left with my whole face feeling hot, but like from the inside out, queasiness and a general achiness. I’m getting sick, I thought, only at the exact second I thought it I knew that wasn’t right. It wasn’t anything on the physical plane - it was all energetic. Don’t ask me how I knew - I just knew.
This morning I woke up with my left ear feeling really full and funny. I even had stabs of pain. I’ve got an ear infection, I thought. Then I thought my jaw was out of alignment so I went to see Dr. Deb, my chiropractor. “Yup, your TMJ is back full force,” she said, putting on her rubber gloves. Crap - when she does that I know it’s gonna hurt. But I knew she’d done something because I could feel the energy flowing through my head veer back into alignment. But by the time I got home my whole head felt like a balloon, like it was going to float right off the top of my head. I feel… funny. I’m usually so good at descriptives, but I’m telling you this current energy ‘thing’ I’m dealing with is almost completely kicking my ass. Notice my more frequent use of swear words! At least I’m writing coherently - sometimes it’s even hard to think, or find the correct words, it’s so jumbled up in there. Shall I talk ‘up’ and see if there’s any hopeful news for all of us warriors down here? I hope to gosh someone’s Home up there.
“We are so pleased to see you have retained your sense of humor. You forgot that in your important list of how to navigate these tricky energetic waters, no? Your sense of humor allows you to rise lightly above the muck and pain to maintain your higher perspective. From your higher vantage point you can then see the ‘higher’ picture and take more appropriate action than just acting automatically or from the lower pain bodies of emotion and past experience. Your current cycle is allowing you to release old patterns of pain that you have housed in your being, not only from this lifetime, but from all of your lifetimes. That is why you experience them on such a deep level - they cut all the way through and back to the very beginning. That is why it is painful to you - deep deep stuff. Don’t you know that? We know you understand. You chose to do it. You are brave, yes, to walk boldly into these chilly waters with just your swimming suit on. You dove into the deep end, for sure, on this one, but as long as you are in the water, why don’t you swim briskly around for a few more minutes until you get used to it all? It doesn’t make much sense to get out of the water now and wade gingerly back in, one toe at a time. Would we recommend to others what you have done, this dive bombing your Work? Hardly. It is not advised for anyone, as the current energy demands have increased worldwide to keep moving you toward your goals that you have each set. It is important that you support each other as much as possible. We know that you have had some ‘issues’ with others, but please try to remain in a loving posture with all of them - they are also doing the best that they can, struggling mightily at times, just like you. Do not take anything personally, above all - it is not aimed AT you, but rather toward you to help you. Catch what everyone is throwing - do what you need to do with the energy and information for your healing, then release it and move on, as there is more coming your way. Do not be afraid - that is not something ‘bad’ - it is just a fact. There is always more right around the corner, more challenges, more rewards, more adventures. That is the nature not only of life, but especially of YOUR life at this time. You have wanted to clear so that you can move confidently to your next level. It is very exciting, if you take the time to understand and appreciate how far you have come. You are certainly not the woman you were even a month ago!
Take the time to just sit with yourself, eyes closed, breathing. Make sure to get some totally QUIET time. Your life is very loud, surrounded by noise and activity for much of the time. That is why you simply can no longer tolerate your elderly dog howling all night - you don’t get a single block of quiet time, and that is very necessary for you at this time. Take yourself away from everything and everybody else if you need to, but get quiet. Be sure to also find ways to make yourself laugh, and keep yourself light-hearted. Find those things that bring you joy and energize you at the soul level. You are so good at that. Encourage others to do the same. It is in surrounding yourself with the higher energies that you find the greatest relief. If your lungs are burning from a smoking fire, you don’t stick your face into the fire some more - you walk out into the clear clean air.
You are doing exactly what you need to be doing in every single moment of your day. Sure, there are some times when you could’ve taken different action, but in the end you end up in the same place, no matter which route you take. You get to decide your route every step of the way. Sometimes you may want to choose the easy route, though! Think about that. In the end, it is all up to you, how you get where you want to go, who comes with you, and your emotional state all along the way. You decide. Life is how you view it, and what you decide it to be. A grueling trip to get to the end of, or an exciting adventure filled with discovery and challenges. Those same challenges that you are condemning are also the challenges that are making you who you are today - a resplendent glorious light being. You are magnificent down to every cell in your body. Know that. That is the Truth, not only for you, but for everyone who reads these words today. Hear me when I say it - you are magnificent in every way. Brave, beautiful, powerful, and never-ending. All of the heavens bow their heads in amazement at what you are attempting and accomplishing. Keep going keep going, please, and be of good cheer. All of this IS for a very good reason, a reason that YOU chose as your end result. We guarantee you it IS all worth it, even if it doesn’t appear so right now. Just keep going. Please keep going.”