I FEEL FABULOUS!!! Wow - what a marathon energy ride these past eight weeks! Almost too much, dovetailing from ‘flu’ to coughing and sniffles, to FATIGUE. But these past two weeks the fatigue FELT different, but I didn’t connect it with my Triality work (not always the sharpest crayon in the box) until I woke up this morning and felt FABULOUS!!! I put on my black capris and sports bra and walking shoes and hit the road for the first time in weeks. I just never had the energy until today. It helps me remember what a powerful thing these energy ‘things’ are, and how it’s really important to slow down and take gentle care of ourselves while we’re going through our transitions.
But it’s hard for me to even KNOW when I’m going through a transition or when I’m just feeling tired. I have a sneaking suspicion it’s ALWAYS an energy thing, because so much is going on. But this current feeling? I feel connected to the rest of the world, like I’ve awakened into a New Reality, and I haven’t felt this exhilarated for quite some time. Energized, enthusiastic, optimistic (okay, the sun’s also shining for the first time in a LONG time, so that doesn’t hurt!), connected. To speak with my new friends from the seminar, and to feel like we’re picking up our conversation mid-sentence. Like we’ve always known each other. Simply amazing. I’m feeling so unimaginably grateful right now, and happy. Like I am able to move more strongly into my Work and not be hindered at all. I also have the sneaking suspicion I’ve been the one hindering myself, not anyone else. But have broken through whatever that invisible barrier was into this beautiful Land where I just AM. I can even breathe easier. And it feels different on my insides. I’m always saying that, because I feel it, but this time it’s even more pronounced and profound, but I also guess that’s what keeps happening - we keep feeling more and more expanded.
How will this affect my Work? Will I keep doing what I’m doing? I think I’ll probably keep adjusting slightly as I keep walking, but I think I’m on the right track with being booked as a guest on national radio shows and getting my column into other newspapers. Communication, helping people - sigh, I live to help. I got my name from Yogi Bhajan a few years ago. It means “Princess (all women are princesses) who lives in constant meditation on devotion to others.” That makes sense to me - devotion to others. What’s my next step? Don’t know, don’t care, I just feel it and know when I step it will appear. And my next step? It will be fabulously glorious. Just like my life is right now in this moment. Perfect.